Burn
5-29-2004
I am standing next to the burning fire
Feeling the heat of defeated recollections
Finally ready to unleash the broken flames
That has bruised my shattered heart
I am willing to burn my memories to life
Flickering my tears to an unstable plateau
Concentrating on the wick of destruction
That forces my soul to subside inevitably
I want to play each broken record
As the blaze begins to shine hysterically
Watching every moment on a blank screen
Until every tear tied to my heart is felt passionately
It is easier to pretend that nothing has happened
With the past disappearing into a false sense of reality
Just as is it was dancing into an erratic inferno
Creating it hard to breathe without the oxygen it requires
But I believe that I have created enough strength
To conquer all of the giants that stand in my way
And I believe that I have enough courage
To face all the demons that dance behind my solitude
I am finally able to aim and fire
Targeting the center of the heavy weights
That push my containable spirit down
Down in to the shadows of begotten happenings
I yearn to fall on my knees in prayer
While reality presently becomes the truth
And crashes into the firestorm’s center
Overwhelming me with emotions ignored
I will stand and fight the urge to tremble
I will walk and overcome this hell hole
And I will be set free…
-Jodi