Thursday, October 21, 2010


If you don't believe in yourself and exude that confidence, how would anyone else believe that you are capable?

I'm a timid person when it comes to presenting my capabilities. I'm always afraid that they're going to think that I'm not good enough, that I'm not experienced enough, that I'm not...yadda yadda yadda. I realized that I'm quick to say that I'm not this....I'm not that....and then I get these weird looks that are both confused and a little annoyed. I am annoyed with myself at that point so I can't blame them.

I absolutely believe in myself and I know that I am fully capable to rock it. I love what I do and I believe I am talented (with still a lot to learn). I give my whole heart into everything that I do for both the make-up and modeling world. It is a passion of mine and I want to grow in, allowing it to be a very close part of my present and future.

BUT my insecurity is that someone will think of what I do as less than what I am fully able to do.  So I tell them before they can think it or realize it.  Lame I know! And I'm seriously shooting myself in the foot, hindering my walk in accomplishing my dreams. I have to look at myself and truly analyze what needs to change, to grow and to become better....all by the grace of God and His willingness to reflect in my eyes what He sees and wants to change.

***I need to stop being a timid little mouse****
Or I won't go anywhere.

 I don't want to give the wrong impression to the people that I work with that I'm this huge professional: doing make-up and modeling my whole life. I'm not and haven't been. And I don't pretend to be either. But I make sure that they know it too before I do anything.  Unfortunately, I'm afraid that this mind set of showing what I'm not before they do is going to hold me back. Then an epiphany happened. A light bulb flickered in my little head of mine. No one is going to believe in me if I don't show them that I believe in myself. Period. 

I will exude confidence, I will reflect the belief I have in myself, and I will shine from the passion within me. I will show them that I am fully capable and that I am a professional in my own right, working towards being the best that I can possibly be. I have a lot of dreams that I want to see come into reality and one of them is to become a truly working and professional model and make-up artist. Lord willing. And I want to work hard towards what I want no matter what obstacles lay in my way. Successful people didn't find success by stumbling across it. Success happened to those who worked hard and sacrificed to make it happen.

Always believe that you are beautiful because you are unique and there is no one else like you.

Always remember that no one will believe in you unless you believe in yourself.

Always fight for what you want and work your butt off to get it...laziness doesn't get you anywhere but to the road of compromise and regrets.

Always laugh from the depths of your soul and embrace every moment that is given to you for they are all gifts.

Always have as much fun as possible, even at the risk of getting weird and dirty looks from others. :)

And always....

Jodi Rae

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Lara Fabian - Part of me

One of my favorite songs of all time. And by one of my favorite singers.

"Part Of Me"

Look in these eyes you'll see the dark
That little space inside my heart
The darkest side withholds the light
The light that brightens me inside
You don't know
Angels don't fly, they have no wings
It is another of those things
That we make up
That we believe
The real thing is not what we conceive

You don't know
I won't let you see me
I will hide, I will lie
As true as can be
You just don't have
What it would take
To be a part of me

These arms are my heart
These arms are my heart
These arms are my heart
These arms are my heart
The darkest side withholds the light
The light that shines
You can't deny

These arms are my heart
These arms are my heart
These arms are my heart
These arms are my heart 

Petal & Thorn

I recently modeled for a sweet and very talented friend, Kristin Brancaleone. She is the owner and creator of the The Treasured Petal, a very successful wedding florist company in Orange County. Kristin's heart and passion for flowers is amazing and has now transcended into unique, beautiful accessory creations that every girl who wants to feel prettier will want! Petal & Thorn is definitely a place to go to buy all your Christmas presents for all the girls in your life. Her creativity and attention to detail is astounding and the items are to die for!!! And I'm so happy and proud that she asked me to be the face of her first line. I'm on her website and all over her Etsy store. :) The shoot took about the whole day and I seriously did like a gazillion different looks. It was so much fun! The photographer, Marlin Munoz, did a great job and the images turned out beautiful.

Hope you enjoy! I'm very proud of these :)

Jodi Rae