Saturday, March 20, 2010

*Defying Gravity*

I'm inspired by music. Broadway musicals. Heartfelt classical. Hardcore rock. Dancing retro-pop. Spunky hip-hop. The Veronicas. Les Miserables. Josh Groban. Heart. Paramore. Celine Dion. Rhianna. Jenny-lyn. ♥

Music just rocks and can be the hydrogen in the air that I breathe.

And now....the beautiful song from Wicked. I haven't seen the musical yet - but I *WANT* to so badly! Matt, please take me when it comes into town? Pretty please? With sugar on it?? Defying Gravity should touch every one of us if we have a dream. A dream that we are willing to work hard to obtain and to become successful at. This song should inspire us to keep pushing forward when others are pushing us down. Sometimes you need to defy gravity and believe in yourself enough to accomplish goals when it might seem impossible. Define your skills and grow! Know that you are the only one who can push yourself to be good at what you love and to be successful at it. Trust that the Lord is in control and has given you talents and gifts! Rest in His sovereignty and live with joyful passion reflecting and giving Him the ultimate glory!

Enjoy the lyrics to my new inspiration. :)

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...

I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But 'till I try, I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love - I guess I have lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...

Random Shoot

Since I was little, I have been approached by various random people wanting me to model for them. I thought they were lunatics - not for me getting into modelling, but that they were really insane because who would really scout in the mall, right? As I began to get older, some of my family members always thought that I could be a model because I had that "all-american" look and straight, hanger like shoulders. I truly never believed that I could do it and I was afraid of the camera feeling like I wasn't pretty enough. I know - coming from the girl who was always in front of the camera, always had a mic in her hand, was always on stage performing, the girl who had so much energy, and the girl who was always doing the craziest things for a laugh. Me afraid of the camera, right?! My mom would laugh at that comment. But I truly was and still am. When I walk onto a photo-shoot it's time to work. It's time to focus and time to rock it. I have to get my mind in the right creative drive. I am very happy how some pictures turn out and there are some that I'm like "Okay....don't do that next time!" It's a learning experience and something that I need to constantly work at and hone in on my skill. I was born a performer. I was born to be fearless and confident. I was born to be a total wild child. :) I have to be confident and believe that I can do it, otherwise it shows in my pictures - through my eyes, through my body language and through my energy.

So here's to it girls! Here's to being beautiful the way God created us! Being unique, beautiful and down right gorgeous! Don't be afraid to strut your stuff :) l! Allow your heart to shine through and don't be afraid to be the individual that makes you so special!

About a month ago, Matt and I decided to take out the camera and take some pictures just so I could get some practice! It was fun. :) This was actually more of a test shoot to see if I had the stuff to really rock it and if I could take some good images. I've heard people say that modelling isn't just about being a pretty face. And it's so true! I have to say that it's a lot easier to work the camera when your husbands behind it. I hurried and did my make-up and threw on an outfit that I probably won't use for a real shoot. It's not the most flattering for the camera. :) But hey - another learning experience. The following pics are good but not great. Loved it. Learned from it. Launched my passion for it. Check. :)

Yes. I look like I'm going to eat you alive in this picture. :)

This would have looked so much better if I relaxed my mouth!


Definitely learned to have "relaxed & delicate" hands. No claw hands. Not so feminine. Check.

Have a great night!!!



Avant Garde Hairstyle Shoot 2.28.10

I was contacted by a very talented hair stylist, Jessie Kenney,,, who is also a photographer to do an avant garde hairstyle photo-shoot. She works at the Rylin Ashlee Salon in Old Town Temecula, Ca. She is a super sweetheart and we had a lot of fun together! She seriously did my hair in like twenty minutes - while also changing it in the middle. I look forward to working with her again! Jessie is a very talented hair stylist!!

I ♥ The Veronicas!!!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Modeling - My New Adventure

Modeling: my new adventure! I am seriously having *so*much*fun*! I'm in love with modeling. I'm so excited to see where this goes. Modeling is definitely becoming a passion of mine: mainly because it's an art! You need to be creative, artistic and you have to be comfortable in your own skin: enough to take risks. The mood, the lighting, the model, the photographer, the make-up artist, the hair stylist, the wardrobe stylist, all come together to create a beautiful picture that is frozen in time. It's as if I'm in a painting that comes alive with the brush strokes of the creative elements. It is hard work and you definitely have to push yourself to see what works and what doesn't. I'm still learning and I hope to learn so much more. I want to know how to rock it and get the best images. :) I truly hope that I become successful with this. My only fear is that I am 27 and a lot of fashion agencies, etc, want the young-ens. But honestly, I'm not going to let that stop me. I'm going to try my hardest to be the best model that I'm capable of and push it! And if they say that I can't, then I say to them, "then watch me!" :) I'm trusting in the Lord with this new desire and passion. He is in control and is sovereign, whom my faith is firmly placed and rested upon. The whole world is filled with careers that reflects the depraved mind. You can not escape it. Modeling can reflect that as well. But not every aspect of it! What a great way to be a shining light of Christ in a world that is so dark. People notice that I am joyful, full of love and fearlessness, seeing and noticing that something is different about me. I don't have to do certain things or act a certain way, the fruits of the Spirit will shine forth in me and naturally set me a part from the world because of Christ.

Matt, my handsome man, is so supportive and is my #1 cheerleader/encourager! I'm so thankful for him! He helps push me, teach me, and guides me. I have been super busy with everything but I'm enjoying it. I'm going to the gym at least 5 days a week which is helping me become more fit (need more work to get where I want to be) and healthier. I do suffer from really low blood sugar levels (hypoglycemia) and it is helping me that I am counting calories and am exercising regularly. I'm feeling so much better about myself and I'm beginning to love the way I look and feel.

Hopefully you will see an ad in a renown fashion magazine and say "I know her!" :)